What’s good everybody, i’m Z how are y’all doin today…
oh-no, im so sorry
Hello everyone, my names Jennifer thats what i was supposed to say
cause jennifer masks the puppet whos string you pull everyday
the one you yank left and right and she’ll do whatever you say
she even softens my voice, so they can’t take my words in an aggressive way
(but you still do)
she’s the way you seem to prefer
because you act like you own her
and treat her as you please
cause you’re on top of the world–
and i’m beneath
But who’s Jennifer really?
Jennifer is the one who leaves MY bag at the front counter when asked
because i just wanted a bag hot fries
I was gonna steal I promise I just got out of class
but she fears the situation so she complies
but me? the one underneath im tired of complying
Now Who’s Jennifer really?
the one who still listens to your demands who still listens to your commands
to avoid the escalation and where your hands might land
She’s the one who didn’t let me cry
who dodged your spit
the one who let it slide
but me? the one underneath im tired of letting it slide
Jennifers a facade i cant escape
she thinks she gains respect but see thats her mistake
cause see Jennifer just ignores all the white noise
because no matter how white she tries to make her voice
the truth is me? the one on the outside i really dont have a choice
Jennifers who society TRIED to shape me to be
Jennifers who the white man TRIED to tell how to speak
Jennifers another tool they use to prevent us from being free
another version of what they’ve been doing for centuries
but still-
she makes me smile through your belittlement
she’ll widen my eyes so i look a little more innocent
she’ll ignore your words because the pain is infinite
but me? the one on the outside, the one behind the mask, the puppet with your hand down her throat-
choking out a bright ball of light, because beyond a flock of vultures we’ll always take flight
i see better with dark chocolate as my iris, it’s quite the sight
cause dark chocolate feels safer than the blue ocean of power conquering all good bite by bite
now-my real eyes realize your real lies
cause’ the truth is they were not that hard to find
i see-…
you clutch your pearls, because you’re afraid
because!-black joy sparks lighter than the sun on its brightest day
because!-black joy ignites a fire that threatens you tourists
because!- let’s not forget this was never your forest…?
to begin with.
and Jennifer i burn you in that fire too
because all she does is shelter my brain from the truth
because im done playin your sick game designed for me to lose
because no matter what it’s always somethin new
you’ll find safety in my danger
you’ll find comfort in my discomfort
you’ll find rage in my calm
you’ll find hate in my smile
you find volume in my mute
Cause Jennifer’s a survival tactic I’ve learned to use
but i want to do more than just exist within the limits you allow me to
i said i want to do more than just survive
But not js yet can we live our lives
cause its all on us to fix ur corrupt system right…
so what is good everybody, my name is Z
im the one whos she doesnt allow to get angry
So goodbye Jennifer, dont let door hit ya when you leave
cause you are only a product of the poison they’ve been feeding me
oh no im so sorry, something came over me clearly
cause how dare you call someone like Jennifer anything other than so so pretty.